Haha, back on 'track!' I crack myself up :) Anyway, after a much too long hiatus, I went jogging today. My last run was a good one, and one I never shared about because I forgot, but the memory of my four mile run up and down the boardwalk many weeks ago was what got my sneakers on for me this morning. I recalled the feeling of joy when some random guy started running along side me, cheering (probably looked like I needed some encouragement as I huffed, puffed and sweated my way down the boards!) When I passed him as I headed towards home, he remembered me and cheered again, demanding a high five. I obliged and smiled for a good deal longer than I usually do when running! So this running memory was what made me get back on it today. I have been really busy, and while that often feels like a good enough excuse for me not to run, lately I've been seriously considering not running the Falmouth Road Race.
I'll admit it. I'm scared. I am scared I won't finish. I'm scared, if I do finish, I'll come in last. I'm scared that people I know and love will see me run and know how slow I am. I'm scared that strangers will think I'm silly for running so slowly... the list goes on and on. So today, I decided, I at least have to try. I may be nervous, or even scared of all of these things, but at least I'm doing it. How many people can say they've run a seven mile race? It may not seem like much to some people, but to me, that could be a pretty big deal.
So I put on my shoes, thought about where I felt like running and decided to try somewhere new. I drove the mile over to Valley Forge Memorial Park and immediately felt like it was a perfect choice for my first run in what felt like ages. It was quiet (I guess most cemeteries are) peaceful, a good mix of shade and sun, and some gently rolling hills. I did a little over two miles, and ran most of it. I felt ok, not great, but probably better than I expected. I feel now, like I can do this race. Two miles is not even close to 7, but I know that with some consistent work over the next few weeks, I'll at least be able to finish the Road Race. I just have to keep simple goals in mind and not let my competitive nature take over, because that's when I feel like giving up!
Stay tuned!
